How This All Began

It began with an email reply to a Craigslist personals ad. My subject line read "Fossils Show Evidence Of Ancient Plants" and I took it directly from a news item on Yahoo! at the time. I ended the first date surprised that I had wormed my way into her bed and by the third date we were trying to have a kid. Marriage followed about three weeks later. And where the hell are we now ? I'm lost on that one. There isn't a map and the compass keeps moving. We're five months into the Bermuda Triangle of pregnancy and I'm beginning to have serious doubts that we're going to come out the other side. She's still the dearest thing in the world to me ... but she's unhappy, equally unsure where this is all going, and a lot of the time it feels like she's about five thousand miles away. Only a fool would have expected this to be easy. But hey, even the consolation prize is worth more than anything else in my life. At the end of four months I'm going to be a Dad. My own father died of a heroin overdose when I was fourteen. Before that he was the most inept long distance father imaginable. I'll be everything he wasn't even if I have to do it with one-hand tied behind my back. Tomorrow we learn if it's a boy or a girl ... and in the months ahead you'll find out whether I sink or swim as a husband. Stay tuned.